Who ever thought that this could happen to me I always thought I could stand upon my two feet Faster I ran, the faster I would get beat He won the bread but he left me out on the street I am sinking underground No escape route can be found Thrust into the river's current There is no way I'll ignore it Swept the floor, locked the door, now I can leave When you see me go, don't waste breath on false grief Memories of my lifetime In a rush they flood my mind Sight restored when I was blind Reality has arrived My world flipped upside down Whispered screams make no sound Chorus When will old wounds be healed? A darker fate looks as though it's sealed Can you face that which is real? Put into words what we all feel? Truth of lies have finally caught up with me Past the blank stare now I can see Curtains come crashing down to the ground in a heap Hold no grudges, forgive and accepting his plea. I am sinking underground Whispered screams make no sound Chorus

Counting down the days til' I can claim what I am owed A life long nightmare from Which I'll soon have awoke Towers and stars they beckon me but (RIGHT NOW!) They're out of reach and out of vision The yearning grows stronger every day For a place beyond, a million miles away... Where conformity is dead! Where i say fuck the plan! Where I can be reborn! The old life ripped and torn! Finish line keeps getting nearer Ask myself what I have learned My choices aren't getting any clearer All that school, what knowledge have I earned? Take a look at everything around me It's so dead and dry, alone, and empty There's little here to ever feed my hunger I can't go on, I'll collapse before I starve... But I can shed my shell Leave my chains in hell And I can set ablaze All the baggage gained They tell me, I got a one in a million Should be chasin' six figures and makin a killin' Would you risk bein' homeless, hungry and broke To play six strings (Must be some kinda joke!) I've got to escape this murderous cycle Can't grow old where I wished away my youth But if I die young on a city street Won't be a dying man with a forgotten dream For all I've won and all I've gained I would have thought I'd had it made They've yet to award security Relieve the pressure's killing me Anxiety builds day by day For my decision, what will I pay? You make it seem so simple to Achieve what I'm told I cannot do No time for to think twice Ignore so called "advice" My dream can be my guide And that which beats inside So let me out my cage All my time I've paid It's time to drop the weight The calling is my fate And I've kissed up, and licked their shoes Played their games and all by the rules Mommy and Daddy I've done none but please Done my homework, stayed off the streets But now it's my turn to take the throttle It's time to release my mother's bottle The world in my fingers now I've come of age Rather see it crumble than never see it change

Burning in the streets it doesn't matter who's to blame Tomorrow it repeats again, the cycle is the same You hang them from their necks and you put bullets in their heart You throw the punch you throw the stone, it's murder from the start So lock your doors and run and hide, escape the animal inside, And after all we're only human It's our own selves we'll drive to ruin You can't deny the beast within The one that lurks under our skin If you look into a mirror, Have you no fear If you find your hands are stained, Don't be ashamed You must admit the best of us When fortunes we lose Will tear like meat the rest of us Though maintain this ruse We shake our heads and disapprove, do none but criticize But after all the rules are gone, we'll tear out our own eyes Will you reach out to save a freak that's bleeding from the head Or keep on walking just to keep each drop of your's instead You say that "some folks got no morals" but what have you done for your part? Chorus Where have we gone in all a thousand years? We made the toys that became the blades Will we ever learn, not to live in fear? Or stay in the mud till we all decay I believe in the light that shines in the darkness of the heart of man When in the street, the stranger you meet A human soul escaped the devil's heat You make the strike that shatters flesh You deal the blow that cracks her skull You gamble all your codes away; embrace the monster in your soul Madness in the papers also festers in your mind Your only hope's that ignorance will keep you ever blind Exploit and lie and burn and kill, comfort in your fantasy Chorus

Keep suckin' in but it won't get better than this There's nothing you could do to get any out of it Don't kid yourself if you know it ain't gonna work Your mind is immobile but you wish it would go berzerk Keep on trying, you're not getting any higher Even from short heights it's a terrible fall Trapped inside my own head with this misery Can't escape til I force myself asleep Can, I, Make it go away? Can, I, Just rewind this day? An awful night I spent alone in that house I wanted to cry but instead sat silent as a mouse I lost my best friend in space couldn't get him back He left me far behind as he wandered off track Trapped in time and imprisoned in my body None to do but reflect and regret No good feelings, good thoughts, good senses, Just a deathly, suffocating depression I, can't, see behind this wall I, Want, to beat and scream and bawl The worst part of all is waking up With all those feelings heavy in my gut There's tears that weren't shed the night before Filling up til my eyes can start to pour It claws my insides, and feeds off of my shame Cut this monster out me, no more pain! Misery, in time, will dull and fade Regret and boredom grow stronger each new day Assurances and fantasies A map to lose me in a dream But what you see ain't what you get I'm searching still, I ain't found it yet I used to be more vigilant I used to be more hesitant When did I become such a sheep? And follow when I used to lead? Don't want, to gamble my time, all for a hopeless search Won't be a zombie deluding itself it's in control (Wanna) Be able to say no, wanna, choose when it's time to smoke Am I having a good time, or is, this just an empty joke? It's not too late, to give it up, surrender rather than give in (But I) Want to relive memories, even, though my attempts in vain (Wanna) Chase all the thrills that I missed out on all along the way (Gotta) Be able to discern, boredom, from stimulation (And) Distinguish if this is depression or elation It's not too late, to give it up, surrender rather than give in Make it special, you really gotta make it last It's true I've lost the standards of my past But discipline I know like no one else I still remember just how to enjoy myself Don't need nothing to obscure the world But I can choose to blur my mind I might not be an abstinent But good God I'm not addicted Can, these, words, just hold true Do they, sound, convincing, to you Am I, buying, into, my lie We, can, only tell with time